..kung anong maisip..
November 30, 2008.. I woke up late (as usual)… I had my unusual routine… I saw my brother surfing at the net… Then I saw pictures of familiar people… couples.. They look so happy indeed.. I saw a lot of pictures.. Then I opened my account and now typing anything I want.. Life is easy and tough. Easy to those people who wouldnt mind their’s lives’ directions or are just plain happy and contented with what they have.. Tough to those who always think what is to be done.. Worry is a thing we must avoid but I found it inevitable in my life.. Since I was a kid, I always worry alot of the things I need to do. I am an observant of what others think of me.. Because I always want to do the right thing or I guess the right things other people think… I am always the standard as they say… but then was I happy? I guess I was but now I’m not.. I’m not happy anymore.. I have realized that other people’s thinking of the proper things to do are NOT the STANDARDS to make me happy… And now I’m letting this reality out because I don’t have any diversional activity… Doing household chores became so boring to me… I’m just at home experiencing the opposite of freedom… I just want to be with that special person yet I can’t because some people wouldnt want us to be together… bullshit they are!…. o well… so sad.. couldnt do anything am stuck here,, stuck in this misery…hmm…
November 22nd, 2008 at 4:44 am
hmmm…nov30???advance ata ang date mo soul sis…siguro you were still in deep sleep.hahaha..pero whatever happens, choose the things that will make you happy.if you will always follow what other people think,you’ll never find the happiness and fulfillment you are looking for.