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— pedrong kuba
… I cannot define what is with me right now… School is so demanding with all the pressures of the Clearance week… Damn it!! I hate the way people give rules! They are so inconsistent… Ginawa ko ng hobby ang pagpunta sa Tondo Medical Center dahil paulit ng paulit… And now I’m awake for 48 hours! I had my night call last night… aaahhh… Badtrip talaga.. Then now, iibahin na naman nila ang rulings… grabe nakakainis na talaga… haaay.. I am like a floating bubble… grabe pati ung taong importante sa buhay ko hindi ko na mahanap kung asa an… grabe!!!!!!! =( ……. happy birthday pala sakin.. pati un di ko na naalala.. haay.. cleo monique!! cleo monique!! cleo monique!! mixed up na naman ang buhay mo.. ano ng gagawin mo? waaah…. =(
How true it can be? Today you’re friends tomorrow you’re enemies… Today he/she is there, tomorrow he/she is gone… That’s how life is…We may ask ourselves over and over again the question WHY and WHY not? ! Why like this and that? We regret most of the time and question ourselves why did we and did not…We become confused… Because there are a lot of answers to our queries… Why is the Human Mind like that? It make us worry all the time. It make us think all the time… And sadly, it is only one’s own MIND that is working… not HIS or HERS.. We cannot find answer to our questions if we are the only one asking and answering our queries.. It’s like battling with yourself… It’s like talking against a wall…It is simply guessing…People make and break you.. Really it’s true… At times, they make you believe everything is okay… They make you believe they are well.. And it’s up to you to discover if they are just deceiving you… You get angry… So angry… And you forget to think why did they do that? You’re MIND is not doing its use… The only present here are EMOTIONS… EMOTIONS that will CLOUD your thinking… EMOTIONS that will mask your sanity… EMOTIONS that will hurt you and eventually break you…
– so much things I want to say, so much things I want to prove, so much reasons I want to know, but there are no opportunities at all…
LESSON: Never ever judge a person, until you know the rightful reasons for his/her behavior….
– i hope to have the kindest me in accepting and dealing with realities I did not ever hoped for..
– i hope to have enough strength to face present circumstances..
– Thank you very much to all the people who was and is very supportive of me…
la, la, la, la… so what would I say… I feel so dehydrated… Dehydrated… Dehydrated… Dehydrated… Dehydrated… Dehydrated… Dehydrated… Dehydrated…
Things happen unexpectedly… and I hate the way I feel…
I feel so dumb and useless thinking what have I done wrong..Am i not enough?… Why did I not feel there is something wrong?…Am I too insensitive?… Why..Why..Why.. Too many queries with only limited replies and explanations… I’m trying to comprehend everything… and end up hurting and blaming myself… I’m trying to reach out and end up rejected… I’m trying to wait and wait till he’s ready… Oh my…Why is this happening to me? I felt so good and so complete, but I was deceived… How about him? I thought he is okay… I love him dearly and thought it was enough… I’m hoping that he’ll be able to open his heart… and give me a a little piece of hope, of chance…I’m hoping that he’ll be able to realize my being, my presence in his life… really shocked I was… I’m having mixed emotions… but still hopeful, hopeful he’ll let me be sane…. again….. =(
Hello! It’s been a while since I made my entry .. I already forgot my last entry with my thoughts.. The last entry I had were the 2 lyrics of the songs that are special to me..Now, I dont know what to say.. I dont know.. I just dont know… ow well.. Next week, Ill be celebrating my 20th birthday.. Will I be happy on that day?… ow well.. i hope matapos na ang clearance at kung anu ano pa.. my gehd.. hmm…sana lang talga.. hay…
