simply meeh…

Today is Tuesday…Again, we had our duty at the National Center for Mental health.. We had our "Dance Therapy" to the tune of "Happy"… haha.. The Happy Dance is indeed a happy dance in spite of hormonal imbalance… an attack of prostaglandin made me anxious, irritable and uncomfortable! whaa.. girls tlga! I already had the idea of going home.. haha… I already felt my bed with a lot of pillows underneath my tummy! haha..Buti nalang pain relievers are to the rescue! haha..

la, la, la, la, la… ooh well! the final examinations are coming… I have come to realize that projects need to be accompished as early as possible.. hay.. my gosh! LIT and SOCIO… I already started typing the content of my SOCIO project.. hay my future life.. wow! am hoping that everything I wrote there would come true.. hay… so much things happened again for the past week.. astig! ang dami tlga.. nakakatuwang, nakakpaisip.. nakakaparealize.. at muli nakakpaisip.. I was a bit irritated by the DOTA boys kanina.. kasi ba naman I was waiting to be entertained by ate at the cashier so that I can hire a computer unit!! e kamusta namang kakainis… They dominated me! grabe.. parang mga di guys!  kakaasar.. siningitan ako.. as if decor lang ako dun! whaa!!

haha..

hayy.. things nga naman.. There are really lots of things in store for us! it’s all up to us on what do we choose to have… either way kasi Lessons can be learned.. pero what if u’r too much afraid of things.. of circumstances.. na somehow alam mo sa sarili mo okay ka na pero takot kang may mga maulit at masaktan ka ulit.. anong gagawin mo.. are u willing to take the risk? Man is really the Captain of his soul.. pero sa point na ito di lang ikaw ang involved pati ang isang tao… u want to be happy yet ur unsure that that thing will really make un happy.. u miss the person, u long for that person pero grabe circumstances and things that make life complex… distance and all… hay barriers…

if u can just go to the time where u’r happy and fulfilled already.. hay.. problems kasi really exhaust a person.. alam mo ung feeling na u know those make u a better one pero when ur there gosh.. u become so weak.. hmmm…

la la la la la… At this point in time c Lord lang makaktulong sakin.. cia lang.. He knows best.. And sana by this time, tama na ako…

— c L e n g

am free… nyarks! really, some good things never last… poor people they just come in circles… hah.. and I was there.. tsk!

a mistake of the past… I can never forget… tsk! hah… It’s  really hard to trust people… hah… and proven "SILENCE" cannot be always therapeutic… ahaha…

They would even hurt you… and leave you behind despite the things you’ve done… hahaha… ghasti! lessons learned! nyahahah!!

"Karma" just on the opposite side… tsk tsk.. vice versa… people people… why o people!!

hmmmm….. above all, no one knows only HIM, why things like these happen…. hah..

– Goodluck, 2nd interaction with the pips in Mandaluyong!

– Simply Cleng

whoa!! "i did my best, but i guess my best wasn’t good enough"… yeah.. love it!

we just came from school… hah.. exhausting yet exciting… i’ll definitely miss our class when we graduate! The nonsense talks.. asaran.. bukuhan.. laglagan.. kaadikan.. kainan.. katakawan.. ka-bullyhan.. and the never-ending debates everytime we are having our feedbacks after quizzes and long exams! mga nagpapatayan dahil sa 1 point! wahahaha!! i love it!

and oh! humm.. i love my clasmmates! hahah.. astig! kasi they are there to give u support and encouragement! hah.. pag-depress ka at pag adik ka! hmm.. they already have a clue pag di ka okay..

la.. la.. la.. and my dormates! hmm.. na-miss ko sila.. yesterday, we had our annual single-awareness day! haha.. according to my classmate, bitter thing daw.. nyahahah.. hindi kaya..

*che-deng*… astig tlga! kahit manic ako okay lang, haha…. dat’s how to live e.. time will come magsasabay-sabay tlga lhat ng iniisip… hah.. projects, exams, quizzes, probs.. etcetera.. etcetera!

am juz proud! because again, i did something beyond the norm! cool huh.. muntik na akong batukan ng seatmate ko.. but then after explaining my side, hmmm.. i gained his approval and appreciation! wahaha.. a tapang a tao na ako e!

wee… no regrets! for the last time, at least i know I did my part… di ba? wat’s with pride ba?? tsk tsk.. and ego?? haha… well o well..

Ang adik nga ng classmates ko! LSS kami sa isang kanta ngayon.. hmm.. ganda kasi ng message.. aun..

whaa.. mukang we cannot make it at the UP fair.. ahhaha.. sadness.. kasi naman pong requirements ng Lit at Socio.. thesis and future! my gehd… I need to be a bookworm! .. e hindi ako ganun.. wha! tamad ako magbasa.. hehe.. kaya nga 3rd year na ko 20-20 vision pa ko.. hehe.. Sir, sapian mo naman ako o please! whaha!! heehee…

haay.. hapiness.. kelan ka kaya mapapasaamin.. hmm. wla ka man ng buo, alam namin with the people around us, makukuha ka din namin.. *gosh*..

move along.. wee!

la lang tuwa tlaga ako dahil brave girl na ako! hahaha.. kahit shockness wha! reactions lang tlga.. pero basta brave na ako! hehehe.. wlang makakagawa nun, ako lang hahah!!

– the brave me cLeng cLeng

han extraordinary duty day! wah.. it’s our first time be on corporate attires with our smock gowns.. haha.. love it!! especially my pointed shoes! haha.. pasaway na bata! and my pink polka dot top! nyahaha.. guess wat, we are on duty at the National Center for Mental Health!

Mah gehd!! whaa.. anxiety entered my whole being! hah.. it’s easy to know concepts regarding Psychiatric patients but dealing with them??ahuh.. not easy!!

My first encounter with a patient: How it was?? wha!! not that traumatic.. I was able to prove to myself that sypmtoms are really exhibited, especially if the patient is in the acute stage of the disorder.. hah..

my first patient manifested a lot of symptoms.. she was diagnosed with Schizo-Paranoid type! wah.. and the catch.. hah… SOP.. bsta un.. At first our conversation went well.. Though there were really flights of ideas.. wha..

Suddenly, she became quiet, reserved.. humm.. She asked for moments of silence.. hay.. then when I was about to leave, she cried..hay..

At first, naawa aq sobra.. But I am her student nurse.. i have to be firm… haay..

I left her…

haay… I could not define wat I felt at that moment..hmm..

I left her…

alone…

hah..

I became curious… ano kaya siya before? I mean before she was admitted.. wat made her sick? haay..

Then we went to a different pav.. I assisted a patient during her somatic therapy called ECT- Electroconvulsive Therapy.. hah.. grabe tlga.. I need to have firmness.. I need not to be affected by what will be done to her..

I saw her having seizures.. I was there holding her left shoulder and hand..haay.. goshness..

whaa… exhausting.. really…

after duty, we went home straight.. and slept.. haha.. i was glued to my bed.. then we received a text msg. from our RLE groupmate.. handa na daw ang handa nila!haha.. food trip kami! wha.. ang figure kinalimutan na ulit!

and after 2 hours, we went to SM North for a pre-Valentine dinner sponsored by my roomate’s parents! wha.. grabe eating level namin! to the extent! hehe.. and a lot of flowers! thanks to Carole!

then.. hah… nu ba.. sna maging okay na ang aking friend.. what is the treatment ba for a broken heart? a general question needs a general answer.. tsk.. GOSH! wer not getting any younger na talga.. hmm..

whew.. wish a wish a wish a wish a wish wish wish… sana wala ng broken hearts.. sana lahat nalang happy and in love.. di ba pede un?? tsk.. para happy ang world.. kasi people know naman na their lessons e.. the importance of a person counts a lot when that person is already gone.. wha.. kaya aun people suffer.. tsk.. wag na sna ganun.. sna.. if I were a cupid.. I would grant my wish- WORLDLY LOVE!

hay.. LSS lang ako sa mdaming kanta ngayon.. pedeng isa-isahin ng roomates ko.. haay.. songs nga naman will make u realize.. hah…

juice ko! pacornyhan na to! hehe..

– cLeng cLeng

whew!! at the moment, I have BIPOLAR DISORDER…

haha… again.. again.. again…

"Bakit kasi may mga taong pilit ayaw harapin ang mga bagay"…

habang ang iba pilit nagpapalatimang..

tapos deadma din pala..

kasi kasi…

haha..

epeto to ng NCMH..

scary kasi..

hehe..

– cleeyo!!

haha..

yeah!! mga guys and gals! araw na ng mga puso!! happy puso sa lahat ng mga young and in-love (o may mga gimik na ba kau to make the week extravagantly sweet! yihee..), mga ma-iinlove (handa na ba kaung sabihin sa knya?? yahoo jitters! haha) at mga na-inlove (hmm.. my mga reconciliation na ba kau from the past?? o stronger na ba kau at kahit pano di na nagpapaapekto sa season of Hearts?? haha!! dont u worry magiging masaya din tau!! Patience is a virtue!)– naks pede na ako maging guidance counselor!!

haha magbibirthday na ko?? haha.. anong konek… whaaa!!

gosh.. ano kayang happening namin this coming week.. i assume naku prelims scores will be given! whaa!!

rawr!!

haha…

hai.. i had a movie marathon last night! haha..

i already slept at around 3 in the morning.. haha..

and guess what.. activated na naman ang tear glands ko kagabi.. and super corny dahil "Can this Be love" ung movie.. ahuh?

come on Cleng GROW UP! haha!! as always khit anong muvi haha iniiyakan.. grabe! iyaking dyosa! haha.. *ching*

Saturday is my day! well, I got the chance to bond with my partner in Crime!.. jogging.. eating..chatting..video watching (EK moments)… i love it! grabe.. and I really love our everything and anything under the Sun topics… haha.. i also love the soccer field.. the cold breeze of an afternoon jogging.. and aun after.. sakit sa katawan.. tagal na din kasi…

and our future plans! panalo! hahaha!! grabe we’re not really getting any younger! whaa.. in less than a month ill be on my last teenage year.. whaa??!! what??? hehe.. i cant take it! harhar.. so I have to enjoy life before I enter adulthood.. ahaha..

well, am looking forward to see everyone especially my beloved friendly friends successful! I wanna see my uhugin friends to be in their corporate attires soon.. whaa! pero gosh! are we really ready for the next big thing?? are all the experiences we had from the past enough for us to conquer the real world?? nyah.. i query that everyone can answer…

whew!! sudden emptiness corrupt me.. haha.. "adulthood crisis??".. haha.. Im really hoping to get through… Life is not easy..The road is tough.. haha.. and I do believe a lot agree to wat I’m saying..

o cia tama na anf mdramang yugto! haha.. napka Bipolar ko tlga!!

yehey! mental hospital na kami bukas!! hahaha!!

– cLeng danda at diosa! haha

yeah… what a week! perhaps, a really drastic week… exams are really hard… ahaha… hirap tlga… ahuh…

i’ve learned a lot of lessons… perhaps, perhaps….

well, at the moment am on 5th stage of dealing with grief.. haha.. tma ba??

… DENIAL

… ANGER

… BARGAINING

… DEPRESSION

… ACCEPTANCE

happy mode!! just had my recociliation with a lot of people… astig lang!

well, wat a relief tlga…

malapit na akong mabuo ulit!

haha…. so gud to be me again…

— cLeng cLeng

what a blast!! rawr… it’s our preliminary examination this week.. yeah!! haha… come on Keltner! Videbeck! Brunner! Lowermilk! sapian nio naman ako o one time lang… i swear i’ll be more than happy..

thanks to free wi-fi connection… heehee!!

ang weird lang kasi nasa labas kami ng bahay nag-nenet! haha.. funny..

humm.. i got the chance to play with my dearest cuzins last night.. haha…

childlike ways.. grshh!! well it made me feel better.. how nice to be a child again.. how i wish.. as if everything is a bliss… hah..

well.. today! SPONTANEITY ruled! after the mass and practice i was suppose to go home already but then my choirmate approached me to join her.. hehe buti nalang sumama ako!!

grabe nalibre tuloy kami sa yellow cab!! so happy.. libre e.. a long lost friend arrived kasi! haha.. buti nalang mayaman na cia ngaun! hehe.. iba na talaga ang kumikita!

i enjoyed the conversation and lunch-out!

humm.. really stress-free…

wat a way to start my week… =)

just love them so!

astig…

– yeah!

– buti nalang anjan cla… yeah men!

i loved my bling-bling today.. pearls.. plus my yellow retro shirt! la lang… =)

– so nice to have friends around! so happy to have people to back u up wen things really don’t go well!!

– happy me..

– hope to last!!

— cLeng cLeng